addicted and busted

  

i am addicted to the internet. it's a way of communication for me, for validation, for avoidance of other activities that will actually fulfill me.

i get a rush when i turn on the computer. i find a million reasons to avoid doing what i need to do on the internet. i should be finishing a grant application. i'm not. i should be writing a letter to my great aunt in korea. i'm not.

i crowd my mind w/internet activity because having a busy mind is familiar to me. silence is harder. and the more i allow myself silence with meditation, the less addicted i feel to busying my already active head. i really am addicted! & now, to turn it off for a little while...until tomorrow AM!