muck and mire

i used to feel like i was standing in a deep swamp of connections to past experiences with pain and pleasure. i had to tilt my face to the sky just to gasp for air. in the yoga world, these connections to past experiences of pain and pleasure are two of five kleshas, deep impressions in our psyche that cause suffering. i'm glad to say that i now feel like i'm up to my waist in the swamppy muck and mire. i can breathe freely and see clearly, but i'm totally stuck and can't move my feet. i can't move forward & i can't even move backwards. it's frustrating, not being able to grow and move as fast as i want to. but i need to realize that i am growing at a rate that i control & that this pace is ok. letting go of past experiences is so hard! we are all stuck in this swamppy place where our fears and disappointments thrive. truly living in the moment continues to challenge me! there are so many levels to living in the moment. it's a life long process and then some...and we're all on the journey together. whew!